It’s been forever since I last wrote and I’m seriously considering dropping it. It’s not as fun as I thought and often I feel like I’m either ranting of offering too much information into my life on this public post. So. I’m not sure how much longer you’ll see me on here.

I found out from the Dr. that I didn’t have anemia or a thyroid problem. He said I “need regular exercise”. What a thing to say. I’m morally opposed to exercise and having the dr. tell me it would help didn’t make me feel good. SO I did take his advice and started working out. Actually Eric and I both are working out. We’ve even got a bet riding on it. Eric’s grandfather gave us his treadmill. Thanks Jim! Eric and I have agreed to walk the treadmill for 30 minutes each day, Monday through Friday. If either of us misses a day during the week we have to watch a movie of the other person’s choosing. For me the consequence is watching an anime movie, for Eric it’s chick flicks. So far we’re a week and half into the bet and Eric owes me two movies and I owe him nothing. At this point any activity is good.

On another note and WAY off topic… have you ever had a friend that you trusted and thought they trusted you but come to find out they don’t. I don’t know how many times in my life I feel like I’ve been a great friend to others and it’s not always reciprocated. I don’t know why. I mean are there tons of people out there being nice to people “just because”? In the last week I’ve had someone in my department go to my manager about me rather than come talk to me and I’ve been snubbed by a friend thinking we were great friends. When these things happen I’m inclined to go into my cave and not want to have anything to do with the other person but I know that’s not always the right thing to do. I guess I’m just writing this because it’s on my mind. Not sure if there is a solution to this one.

My brother’s birthday was on Sunday. He’s 24 now. I can’t hardly believe it because i remember the day he was born like it was yesterday. Wish the turkey would call me… Josh… CALL ME! I’d like to know how he is and what he’s up to.

Work continues on my business. I’ve got to get my business cards made and finish registering and start with the IRS stuff. Oh the joys. Well, better get back to work.

I did it. I really did it. Jennifer and I went and worked out today after work. I always feel so good after a workout I don’t understand why at times I get so resistant to the idea. I did 20 minutes on the elliptical and then 20 minutes on the treadmill. For the first time I tried running on the treadmill. At first it was pretty easy. I was going on an even incline and there was a guy on the treadmill next to me and so I kept pace with him. then…… for some reason I’ll never know the thing started to increase the incline. Suddenly… I’m toward the end of the treadmill hanging onto the oh crap bar wondering what’s going on. I thought I was totally going to fall flat on my face and be like the cartoons where the cartoon falls and their face flattens and they roll off the end of the machine. Thankfully I collected myself and stopped the thing and restarted ensuring that the thing was going to stay level the entire time. I made it for another few minutes running and then I just couldn’t do it. I don’t know how people do it. Maybe someday I’ll be that good but in my heart of hearts I think I know, I’ll never be a runner. I honestly don’t know why I think it’s important to run. maybe it’s the perceived social pressure, I don’t know. I like walking. I could walk for miles or run just to the end of the block. I think I prefer walking because you get to look at things around you, usually you can hold a conversation with someone else. All of these are benefits in my mind. Running doesn’t have benefits. I can run, get winded, get lactic acid burn, a side ache and shin splints. This.. this does NOT make running fun….so I’ll keep doing the elliptical and walking fast on the treadmill and those runners can pass me like I’m standing still…and I’m OK with that….. I think